Sometimes, in the midst of chaos, you have to stop and remember what you have, what you’ve achieved, and what you’ve conquered.
Summer vacation definitely hasn’t boded well for my mental health. Work, studies, kids, etc has definitely taken its toll on our marriage. But marriage has never been the piece of paper I signed over a year ago. It’s the mental and emotional strength to deal with each other’s bullshit. It’s the ability to not strangle each other when there is every reason to. It’s staying up, even though you’re exhausted, because the other person is more important than sleep. It’s telling the other person to eat and drink water, because you know their mind isn’t even considering nutrition. It’s coming home knowing the other person is in a bad mood, but still walking in with a smile. It’s waking up from a bad night and still not being able to imagine a life without them. It’s posting a piece of paper on a wall to remind you how a marriage should function.
There have been moments where it felt like there was no future. But here I am, married, with three kids, a house, dogs (Who are just as stressful), a good and satisfying job, and luxuries. I couldn’t ask for a better life. I just wish it was always possible to realize that.
